Last night I slept 5 hours during a time period where it is normally impossible (!) for me to sleep without Benzodiazepines. This time I did not take extra CBD before I took the spy and it was only after I took the extra CBD when I suddenly got crazy tired. This combination of THC and CBD literally takes my brain out, but not in an unpleasant way like Antipsychotics or some Benzodiazepines do it, it is very relaxing and smooth, without feeling high, just super relaxed, tired with additional analgesic and muscle relaxant effects.
However: the effects are super strong. I took my dose at 8:30 pm yesterday and I still can feel a huge portion of it.
At the moment I can't see how I should be able to take it in the morning. This would make me chill on the bed all day long.
From what I've read my response should not be as strong as it currently is. It is really surprising how powerful this THC / CBD spray is.
My current theory about this is: I recently read that some disorders have something to do with a lack of natural endocannabinoids. Let's assume this is a factor in my case. A lack of endogenous endocannabinoids would result in chronic under stimulation of my endocannabinoid system (ECS) and therefore result in a higher concentration of cannabinoid receptors (up regulation) to compensate for the lack of endogenous endocannabinoids.
So maybe, just maybe cannabinoids are exactly what my brain is missing and maybe I was feeling this as a teenager and young adult when I developed an interest in Cannabis. But unfortunately like many other people in this age group, I enjoyed Cannabis too much even though I was smoking way less than most of my friends, I still got into trouble and had one Psychosis which was at least related to my Cannabis intake.
I remember back then I had a hard time stopping Cannabis because it was the only way to find sleep. But after the Psychosis and hospitalisation I was told I do have a bipolar disorder, that I should smoking Cannabis forever since it is harmful for me and should take antipsychotics like Zyprexa (Olanzapin) or Seroquel (Quetiapine) instead. And because I was diagnosed as bipolar, I also got a prescription for Lithium, all drugs from which we know are super harmful for RLS patient.
That's how my nightmare started and back then I had no idea what was happening to me, felt guilty because I was using Cannabis and the Psychosis was a wildly, irritating experience. Most likely I should have been treated with antipsychotics only for a short period of time or maybe just CBD since it is an effective antipsychotics and after my psychotic episode was stabilized, they should have investigated my sleeping problems ... but ya, those modern antipsychotics were such an easy and quick solution. For months nobody wanted to believe me that Zyprexa was only making me depressed and because my father committed suicide when I was 16 and my aunt (the sister of my mother) has a bipolar diagnose, it was just too easy to diagnose me with a bipolar disorder too.
At the time nobody realized that the Psychosis was mainly connected to the social stress resulting from an undiagnosed Asperger-Syndrome resulting in lots of problems in school and at home, not to mention the trouble in the years before and after the suicide of my father.
Now after 14 years of being diagnosed with a bipolar disorder, I kinda have come full circle and I am back to Cannabis.
I still remember so well how everyone was telling me how bad Cannabis is for me, my doctor, my psychotherapist, my mother and how bad some psychiatrists thought of me when I was hospitalised with mood problems and they detected Cannabis in my urine because sometimes I was still smoking a bit. They thought I am one of those addicts who simply do not want to learn.
At least later I got lucky with a new doctor who did not believe a thing those doctors from the hospital, clearly saw that I did not display any signs of an addict, something he really cared since in the past he had a lot of trouble with addicts abusing his good will and so he made sure to ban those kind of patients from his practice.
So weird that now many people think Cannabis is a good idea, including my mother, the pharmacy where I fill my prescriptions or friends from the past who back then told me how evil Cannabis is.
What is really sad is how a specific diagnose already pre-determines how a doctor will look at you when he sees you for the 1st time.
I am sure that there are quite a few opioid addicts who only tried it because they had problems with sleep and leg pain, without really knowing a name for it. They noticed how opioids help them but when they later started looking for a doctor, they got told they are simply addicts. Would be interesting to know how many cases like this are out there.